Lindell's 30 Day's Of Practice - Week 4 (Round 2)

Monday Check In.

I'm here! I missed checking in for 3 days.

I didn't really have plans so defaulted to my base plan which can get a little bit blurry.

 The main thing I always do and did throughout the 3 days was ask myself "am I really hungry right now?" and "where am I at on the hunger scale?"

And I stop at around a +6 although these past 3 days I don't think I made it past a +5 or even +4.

Weight is same today as it was Friday morning.

I enjoyed a family meal Friday night and a G&T with hubby.

Saturday night enjoyed dinner with my dad and a G&T.

Sunday enjoyed lunch with my inlaws and 2 beers.

Had ice cream 3 times over the 3 days.

Chocolate, some chips/crisps.

Nuts, yoghurt, pancakes... what else?

Smoothie, biscuits, oh and a big piece of cake at a party, then the rest (meat and veg, yoghurt and berries...)

It was a relaxed weekend and I didn't gain any weight.

Because I didn't eat much of anything. My portions were smaller and I said no to A LOT of stuff because I wasn't hungry.

So what worked was the hunger scale.

What else worked was how much my brain has changed. My thoughts were not "I'm off plan I may as well keep going". I made great decisions in the moment. I feel like I lived naturally and easily free from food. Choosing if I desired and wasn't full, saying no if I felt a bit on the fuller side. There was no FOMO or any stress around it.

What didn't work?

No plan. I really love having a plan. No plan just creates so much more effort. I love that I fell back onto my base plan guidelines but I still wish I had a plan and could have been a bit more intentional throughout the weekend. I felt a bit low in energy this morning and I don't like that. With a plan I would have made some different choices that would have made me feel brighter and more energised which is the feeling I want.

What would I do differently?

I think I want to set my weekend plan on Friday mornings. Make an effort to check in friday and set my plan then.

I feel a little uneasy thinking about setting a plan that early but I will self coach on that and explore that feeling.

Tuesday Check In.

I was feeling so low this morning. Woke up tired and blah.

Had the group coaching call at 6am and started the call with feelings work. I noticed I was feeling insufficient and not enough. More like I needed to achieve something, do something more. Interesting.

I was able to sit with the feeling a little after the call until I was told our water has been turned off for the day for emergency works and then the kids started fighting.

I remained calm on the outside but felt angry inside. A slight rage building.

I took some time before I got back into the office to sit and breath then did 40 minutes of yoga.

With the feeling of insufficiency I really felt the need to action but decided to love and care for myself instead.

I'm still feeling that need to achieve something and will let it be there as long as it wants to stick around.

I'll carry on with my work.

It's so interesting because it's like that feeling is there to motivate and drive me but it does the opposite. It stalls me. I feel like I'm ready to run but I don't know which direction I'm meant to run in.

Anyway, that's what's going on in me today.

Wednesday check in.

Woke up feeling great, weight was the same as yesterday, showed up to my plan yesterday with the exception of about 8 hot chips.

Went for 2 short walks and did some yoga.

Just attended the Parents and Friends meeting at the school and now I'm fired up. ha ha

When I care deeply I become very passionate. I'm aware I'm feeling fired up, it's like an excited anger, a passionate fume. I really think I need to find the thought/s that are fuelling this.

Ok, after sitting and breathing I think the thoughts are around "they're making me..." "they think..." "they're not being inclusive" "it's not fair". Oh yeah, when I re-read those 4 thoughts the passionate anger builds more ha ha. It's so fascinating to witness.

As I self coach through this I can see that knowing what I want for my family, volunteering the time I want to, showing up as the version of me I want to be and keeping myself open to hear all points of view without feeling like I have to agree with everything I hear will serve me. It helps me feel calm, confident and intentional.

Gosh it's interesting how quickly my emotions were swept off their feet in the meeting.

Fighting or challenging what was said and done doesn't really matter now.

The situation is now the situation and it's not going to change, it's great I now see the full picture and can choose how I respond to the circumstance.

Oh that's so helpful.

I'm feeling calm and centred.

Thursday Check in, Great night sleep last night, woke feeling rested.

Made gluten free pancakes for the kids for breakfast (son has NAPLAN this week so filling him up for it).

I'm feeling on track but my mindset feels a little weaker than it's been in recent months.

I'm going to do a thought download today to explore my thoughts about how I'm living my life and how I want to live my life. I think that will be very valuable for me.

Friday Check in. Feeling tired.

I was due to fill it for Amanda on her call #1 but when I got up for it at 2am I didn't feel well and I knew I wouldn't provide the level of coaching I want to deliver so I cancelled the call. I hope not too many people were affected.

I'm feeling very tired this morning. Tired and puffy.

I didn't get the thought download done yesterday that I wanted to do. I will do it today. it's going to be important because I can hear my brain offering me actions to take and the old alarm thought of "you just need to..." I know from experience that anytime my brain offers me "I just need to..." it's focused on the action line and theres ALWAYS a thought there that needs finding.

Weight is the same, has been pretty consistent all week.

Plan for today is accept where I am, be where I am, breath and be.

I think a day of increased water will be good for me too.