Lindell's 30 Day's Of Practice - Day 28/30

Day 28. +600g.

A week ago I was so thrilled to be the weight I am today. 
Today I am slightly disappointed. Oh how interesting our brains are. 

Today I have exceptions on my plan too. 
Lasagna and salad for lunch, plus cake. 
Then sushi party pancake for dinner.

It's 9.48am and I've already made the bolognese sauce, been to the hardware store, been to the supermarket, cake shop, fixed the spa and watered the garden. Took my gorgeous little helper to fill him up with love and positive vibes. 

Big day in the garden with sister and brother in law coming to help.

Making the lasagna for my BIL for his birthday. Going to celebrate him today and shower him in love and family fun. He's a twin AND his birthday is right near my sisters too. He never gets his own day so today we will make it his day. Even got his name written on his cake ha ha. That's ALL OUT for us. He's going to LOVE it. 

So great day ahead, I've got a great plan and I'm feeling positive. 
Sister is on her way so jumping out of my dress and into my garden wear. We are making so much progress on the yard.
Oh I'll tell you quick about that. 
If you've been following my journal here you'll know we've been pushing for this yard to be done. 
I keep saying to my husband "It'll be SO good when it's done". 
We're are the point where we are unlikely to reach our goal on our goal date. Christmas day, have the lawn down. 
Tonight we'll likely need to make the decision. 
But we're not stopping our progress. We're still pushing to get as close as possible to our goal. Which would mean all steps done except the lawn being laid (we've got about 25 people + 2 dogs staying for 3 nights after Christmas, we don't want them all on our new lawn so if we can't lay it this week then we will wait until after.)
I'm feeling mixed emotions and will be disappointed if we don't get it laid. I'll really need to self coach and manage my mind so my thoughts don't affect my whole Christmas.
I'll deal with that when I need to.  

Lunch was lasagna and salad. I had 2 pieces of garlic bread. Then cake. 
Had a beer too. 
Then about 3 handfuls of mixed nuts. I really need to sort my brain out with that one. My thought "they're good for me" and I also hear the thought "mixed nuts each day extends your life" ha ha. Oh brain. 
So, I now own the mixed nuts again, they don't own me. I can have 8 nuts a day if I have yoghurt and mango but I won't have more than that. That's my new general rule. 
Also good to note they don't actually fill me up so I'll remind my brain that when it tells me they're an easy nutritious food that will fill me up. That's false brain. Totally false. 

Dinner, I had a slice of pizza. Cold leftover pizza. Not delicious, not nutritious, just because. Because it was there, and I wanted it. 
I heard the thought "it won't really matter, you already had those nuts and garlic bread. 
oh my brain was wild. 
I'd say I was in a High Weight Cycle today (since Friday really). 

Thoughts that will help me transition to a Low Weight Cycle:
- My goal (I think this is the main point that has shifted me into a high weight cycle, I reached my 30 days of practice goal so I didn't have direction). 
I'll assess where I'm at tomorrow morning and commit to my 5th January goal. 
- I don't feel great, so my weight doesn't even really matter. What matters is how I'm feeling and right now I'm not feeling how I want to feel. So tomorrow I will plan and show up so I feel great, full of energy and healthy. 
- I know how I want to live my life and I know why I want to live that way. So I'll do that again. 

Today I did over 12k steps with the yard work. I was knackered. I think I pushed myself too hard this weekend. We won't get the grass laid before Christmas so it'll be dirt everywhere when we have visitors. It's just going to have to do and I'm just going to have to coach myself and find thoughts that really help me through the week.