Lindell's 30 Day's Of Practice - Day 17/30

Day 17, and I didn't start this entry until now which is 11.25am. 
Why was I delayed? Why wasn't it a priority for me? I want it to be my daily priority so I'll be sure to post early each day until the end of the 30 days of practice. 
Morning reflection and entry is what I want to prioritise for myself. 

This morning I had a rare sleep in until 7am. It was nice, I was woken with a lovely good morning and being shown origami. Great way to wake up. 

I'm getting on a private coaching call then will do my daily plan here before I start lunch. 

 No change on scales today.

Ok, I'm about a - 4 or -5 on the hunger scale. There's leftover zuchhini I can have with 2 eggs for lunch. 
Dinner - chicken and salad. 
2 cuppa's, 2 coffees, 1 chocolate. 
That sounds like a great day to me. 

I'm feeling a little not weak but like shaky in my conviction. What thought could be creating that? 

I'll do a thought download:

What if my conviction runs out. What if I fall down and find it hard to get back up again.
What if I lose my motivation and decide I no longer want to live this way? 
Do I really want to live this way forever? 
How am I living? I'm planning daily, eating 2 - 3 meals a day. Limiting my carbs, eating lot's of veggies and protein plus good fats. I'm limiting my sugar intake and mindless eating. 
I'm allowing discomfort way more and not taking the easy numbing way out. 
It does feel like effort sometimes. But it also feels like there's less cravings and urges so in another way it seems like less effort. 
I do have to allocate time to my day to plan and be intentional. But that time allocated is saved in brain energy used debating with myself throughout the day. 
I enjoy foods and drinks I love when I put them on my plan. 
My weight is still 500g up from where it was last Friday. That's still 2.4kg down in 2.4 weeks. So I'm actually tracking nicely. That's good to see in that perspective. 
My energy levels are SO much better than what they have been before my 30 days of practice. 
They are more consistent too. 
My thoughts about myself are much kinder, I'm proud of myself and have way less mind drama about how I'm living my life. 
So I do want to keep living this way even when my brain tells me it's boring or exhausting. Really it's no more exhausting than living feelings disappointed and constantly arguing with myself about what to eat, being consumed by thoughts of food etc. 
I'm living intentionally and benefiting from that. 
I do want to add a bit more fun to my days. Maybe some music and dancing with the family. 
We had some lovely family cuddles this morning and we were all present and soaking up the love. So maybe I don't actually need to 'add' anything to my day except gratitude for what already is. hmmmm that's interesting. 
For the rest of today I'll be actively grateful for what I create for myself. 

Quick check in, lunch was at 2.30pm. Had chicken and zucchini. 
Dinner was chicken and salad around 5.30pm. 
I'm  +5 on the hunger scale. Wasn't really hungry at 2.30pm and could have delayed until dinner but I might have got into a frantic state. Who knows. Anyway, stuck to plan (except had chicken instead of eggs for lunch. Does it count that they are the same thing just at different ends of their life cycle? ha ha). 

I had half a tiny chocolate, took a bite and didn't like it so gave it to my husband. Forgot to go back for another chocolate. How great is that. I feel so satisfied and like I'm not missing out on anything. 
I think I've lost track of my cuppas today? I think I might have had 3 instead of 2. Not 100% sure. 

All up a great day. My new office is ready for me to move into. My husbands office is SUPER close to being finished. Wahooo, we're almost there. I hope I can move my desk and stuff in tonight ready for my 6am Prima call.